i have a lot to do. i have to figure out how im gonna get it done. i have to edit my movie, i have sats and aps to study, i have a ss paper. i have all state to practice for, i'm not ready. i have school. im done for school this year. i have so many other things i have to do, sitting in class doing nothing for at least four hours is not worth the time anymore.
i need to write a story this summer. at least a screenplay, at most a storyboard. i have to work on drawing-anatomy for my portfolio, i want to start living at the bronx zoo to understand animals.
there was this philosophy in a fiction book ive been reading since mid february. it was about dealing with things like animals do, accepting the now and your place in the now. how yeah, sure, its raining. that means that you will be wet and cold. and that you need to stop thinking of your problems and worries and look around and breathe and listen and be. its a messy room with too many books and the pollen is thick outside and the shovel has disappeared and the kids down the block are playing with the little white dog. i think that's a taoist belief. i dont know. i feel like i should meditate a bit.
You need to read Eckhard Toller... this is a philosphy which would fit you.
ReplyDeleteare there books about the inbetweens of things? like about the connections rather than about things that are connected.
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